unpredictable journal

31 August 2004

Tired cum sleepy

Pretty late already and a lot of my friends were still onling chatting with me. Haha, tomorrow don't wanna go school already. Wanna take a break, besides, it's just only a teacher's day celebration. As for wednesday, I'll be staying at home practicing cello and doing revision for common test which starts next week. So... really had to start my revision or else it will be too late.

Wishes to buy something for Mr. Ji's and Mdm Juhairah. But not very sure what to get for them. So end up, didn't buy anything for them. Sigh... feels so bad.

Today had been practicing for hours of cello. After which, accompany her home. Then sit on the void deck to chat chat until about 2230 hours then I decided to go home. Luckily... I went back home earlier... if not, guess tonight gonna sleep outside the doorsteps le.

Sigh, don't know what's wrong with my mom. Keep on nagging naggin and nagging. Me just forget to bring my key out... what so big deal about it? Not please with me, then lock the door... lock me outside... is okay with me. Sometimes, I rather to stay outside than staying at home. No fresh air at all. Not like outside, so nice, a breezy night. Sigh, staying at home was like hell man!

So hack care her, walked straight to my room and starts the computer. Then the computer wasn't being shutted down properly earlier on. Think was because of the stupid jerk plays the computer till half way then fall asleep then dad came in and just switch off the main switch and thats it. Everything gone. Sigh...

So not that most of the time I wanna quarrel with him lor. He just don't understand that I'm the one who's being scolded, being blamed for not switching off something after use. But how can I afford to let someone keep on accusing me?

I hope I'll luv myself more

00:01

29 August 2004

Sigh... shouldn't be a busybody. Wanted to help out and sort out the problem for them but end up hurting everyones... including myself. Sigh...

Well, maybe in the first place, I should 've went to his house to take my cello back home yesterday night. If I've taken back by yesterday, guess today he'll not be coming. And if he's not coming, this situation will not happens. Secondly, I should 've arrived earlier this morning. To help juniors out in tuning their cello. Sometimes, I really feels like I'm useless, I'm a failure. Juniors had been learning cello for more than half a year, and they should by now knows how to tune their own cello. But sometimes, I thought of something. I've already graduate, I shouldn't be doing all these things. Doing all these things one will be Jie Ling's and Jolene's. Am I blaming them? No! Because I know is tough to teach them this technique in addition, they don't 've a tuner. So I shall takes all the out come.

Just because of a stupid pfm for our PM Mr Lee, BLCC elder ppl was shouting like hell... keep on rushing and rushing them to go down to the pfm venue. Some more, pfm didn't starts that early as what I thought. It starts at about noon and we just performing one piece. Quite upsetting huh? Because of the fucking shouting, both he and she get annoyed and frustrated. And because of that, they created a misunderstanding in between themselves.

I'm lost and confused who should I help. I tried to be reasonable but somehow, I was still siding him. I did tried to explain to him about something, but he just seems like can't be bother to listen to my explanation and that hurts me a lot. Well, what's more? Not that he didn't hurt me before. Well, I'm not blaming him for anything... just commenting something. So don't be misunderstood by me.

My own opinions for the two friends of mine. Starts off with her...

She's someone who lack of initiative and motivation. Most of the time, she's sensitive and she'll care for herself more than others. Sometimes, not that people around her wishes to order her to do something. It's because she looks totally blur and not very sure what should she do. So people around her are just helping her a bit out. Hopes she could understand.

He's a very stubborn friend of mine. Well, all human beings don't like to be commented on something. So he's also the same, nothing special. Gets annoyed, frustrated and irritated damn easily. But still, he still prefer to keep all to himself... unless... someone raised the matter again. Just like what I've done earlier on.

Guess I've disappointed him when trying to explain to him about something. But sigh, I just hope that they'll be fine soon.

All human beings loves to back-stab each other... don't they? I dos that too. So is not surprise at all that he is back stabbing you and you did back-stab him back too... didn't you?

To me friend is really important. I used to ask my "friends" which one would you put it in the first place of your heart. "Friendship", "Relationship" or "Kinship"? To me, I would definitely put friendship in the first place of my heart. To me, friends are really important to me yet I still haven't really found one. To me, a person who can be called friend will be someone who's loyal, trust-worthy, humble, thoughtful and understanding person. Of course there are lots more criterias for being a friend of mine. But just that, couldn't think of anything else for the time being. Very sad... now already about 17 years old... don't even 've a friend to chat with. Sigh... when will I find my true friend?

Sigh... very sad. He told me off and guess he blocked me. Cuz he's tired of all these. And I'm tired too.

Just because of this situation, it can cause someone who loved cello more than I do to gave up on cello. I'm sad to know that he was feeling that he was the only one out during saturday practice and getting all those attitudes from various ppl. Sigh, sometimes, I don't really like to chat with him. Because another person might be feeling lonely. I don't wish that to happens. Sigh... am I the one who causes him to feels that he was the only one out? Perhaps, I should be to one who stop going for saturaday practice and this would be avoided.

Sometimes, I really cannot figure out something. Human beings are too realistic. Don't you ppl agree? When he's bored, lonely, who's there for him? Is she... she's the one. Did he know? I doubts so. But when she's lonely, was he there for her? No, I don't think so. Sigh... human beings claims that no ones could understand them well. How true it's. I don't understand my "friends" at all, and they don't understands me too. You think you don't wish to hurt his feelings. But did you know that he don't wish to hurt yours too?

Stupid jerk... so selfish of him. Sianz... he wanna use it... I'll let him 've it. Sigh... he's the one complaining my internet yet he's also the one using it most of the time. Saying me selfish? I don't think so. Sigh... I just hates him. I'm feeling down now... anyone knows? No... no ones... !!! Sigh... v sad... he treated me that way...

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:40

Not in the mood to update journal

Today wake up damn early sia... by myself someone. Well, it was like a miracle... even my mom says that too.

So was about to get out of the house when the qian jing xiao jie sms me ask me wanna meet before going to cc ma. Then of course I say okay lor. So waited for her for quite a long time. Sigh...

Hm, waited for a while then no patient le, wanna take cab... but couldn't spot for any... end up bus came le... so took a bus down there.

Reach cc le, then happy ma. Everything prepared for me. Haha... thnx worx...

Then after which, went to get change after which, went up to change my shoes. Then realise that my black shoes ganna stole by someone. Ai yo, sickening the that person. Haix... so upset man.

So wear my slipper to pfm. Haha, guess not many ppls realise that ba. Glad. Then was damn tired lor... the whole morning. So... haix... some more don't know what's wrong with Jo's. Showing me that kind of attitude like hell man! Guess because I commented her and she don't like it ba. Haix... but what's wrong with Mu He? How come she shows Mu He the same attitude too?

Went home together with Percie, Jasmine and Jolene. Quite fun during the whole journey. Haha...

So after reach our bus stop, then I've a chat with her at the void deck. Then realise that she was angry with Mu He. Haha... what's wrong with him? Good question. He was ordering Jo's doing something and Jo's hates it. But she didn't told him. She don't like Mu He's to leave her alone when he had friend. And Jo's also commented that I was a little bias. Well, perhaps, I'm. Haha... Mu He's my god-brother Jo... you've to get that right. In addition, he's guy and he lost his temper much more easy than you. So even sometimes, I'm afraid of him. So don't jealous okay? Haha...

After which, practice cello with Jo's. Nice man! The concerto. Haha... play till hand pain. But guess was alright. Sigh, no mood to study only care to practice cello. Haha... die le... tomorrow mock test too. Haix...

Sigh, not in the mood to update journal today. It was just totally like sucks... also don't know what's the hell I'm typing. Sianz... that's all...

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:52

Tired

Oh dear, it's already 1.05am yet I'm still awake. My god, tomorrow sure cannot wake up at 7am... jialat. Sigh, just now did some editing to my template after which when to comic webby to check out some comic. Guess what? Love for Venue 3 is gonna to be out on either Sept or Oct. Hoho... good man! So next when to friendster to write some testi for ex c'mate. And added quite a number of new ppl. Haha... guess going to sleep already. Dad still watching the show... sigh... what's so nice about that show? Well, he's watching with his sleepy eyes. Ai yo, better catch some sleep too la, dad.

I hope I'll luv myself more

01:04

28 August 2004

Monday OFP mock test

Wake up in the morning to do some laundry to lighten my mom's work. Don't wish to see her tired face; black face everyday. Plus I got nothing to do at home.

After washing some clothings, feels like dying soon; back ache cum feeling a little dizzy. So quickly lie on the bed and continue my reading of Love for Venus 2. Hm, quite funny and interesting to read. No regrets of buying it.

Actually, don't wanna come online so early one because surely 've nothing to type in my blog. But because dad gonna paint my room after he knock off from work. Then for sure 'll be painting till dawn. Guess by then I would 've been sleeping. Sigh... then the next day gotta reach CC at 8.30am for the sickening performance. After coming back home 've to sit down on the chair and starts my revision for ofp. Guess for today too. So bored... (o_oll)

Hm, now listening to one CD. It has a melodious and soothing tune. Thanks for lending me the CD, ah mu. If not guess my day would be empty... Haha...

That's what friends are for

For the whole morning, 've been surfing net. Afternoon wise better, copying notes for c'mates. Well, they were absent for good reason, that's why I copied notes for them on my own accord.

Wish to start my revision for OFP. But somehow, don't 've the mood to study. So switched on the tv to catch some shows. Tonight the next big stars wasn't that interesting to watch. Perhaps, on the 11 Sept will be more interesting as it's the final competition. But sigh, don't know wanna go to my cousin birthday party or not. Afraid that on that day might 've section practice. So... sure won't be able to make it to her party. Haix, depends ba.

Dad finally finish painting my room already. Well, like sucks. It looks so dim even thought I open the windows wide big. Still prefer white, so pure! Or maybe he should 've uses lighter colour. Milky colour seems to be a little orangeous so... sigh... no comment... anyway, it had been hard for dad.

Now don't know wanna do what. Don't feel like sleeping but was pretty tired. But my dad was watching tv programme in my room. Ai yo, why don't he go out and watch? Good question. Because he's lying of my brother's bed. Haha... guess he'll be falling asleep soon. Sigh, guess if he really fall asleep in my room then I'll go to the next room to sleep le. Haix... that's all. Take care everybody.

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:31

27 August 2004

Cello exam

Hm, gotten back my BSA common test result. Scored 89 for it. Hmm, quite a lot of marks were being deducted. Sigh, but still there's an "A".

My cello examination was quite upsetting even though the starting seems to be pleasant. I slipped off when playing the first solo part of cello. Sigh, so sad man! Wondering how many mark will be deducted just for this error. After that slip, I lost my confidence. Didn't play well throughout the whole song. No intonation at all and guess accuracy wasn't quite good too. Bowing was not well used but guess, the examiner didn't notice about it as he was busying writing loads of comments. But on the whole, guess this remains steady.

Move on to the second piece, was the Chanston Triste. Again, no intonation at all even Dorina's says that. One error somewhere in the middle and can't even sense my own passion over here. But still, this remain steady.

No. 5 was quite alright guess. But pluse was implusive and gotta be more aware of accuracy. Didn't really play well some where in the middle and ending. The rest guess was still quite ok.

Scales the only one which I'm most satisfied with. Full of confidence in passing this. If I'm not wrong, guessI scored 19 for it as I was peeking at my result.

Sight reading, still okay. Guess scored 17? Sigh, should 've scored even higher. At least a 19?

Aural was like sucks? Haix... pitching notes wasn't that good but at least I tired. Guessing of period was quite okay? I guessed a classical period as it has a melodious tune whereby I could remember it clearly and easily. Guess the examiner was still waiting for more answer but sad enough to say that I can't remember anything else other then this. So he added in for me that it was well balance. Now I thought of sth to say. "It has terrace dynamic" guess that's the ans too? Follow by, the major or minor key for that piece of song that he had played. Hmm, I guessed it was in a major key as it sound very cheeful. So... should be in major ba. Guessing of time signature, I guessed that the piece was in 3 times. But I sang the rhthme for MH n Jo's they said that they will guess that it's in 2times and another says it's in 4 times. Sigh, who should I trust? But I think 4 times was a possible answer too. Hopefully that I'm right. Sigh, should 've do better than these.Clapping of rythme was quite okay except for the last bar I think. And that's all for my examination.

Before leaving the venue, I said "Thank you, and 've a nice day" the examiner was like can't help laughing at me. Erm, did I says anything wrong? Haha... don't know. But all I can comment was that, this examiner was damn kind and generous that he says more than 3 times of "Thank you". His name was Peter Dians. I remember it very clearly as he gave me a damn good impression. I know he tired his best to help us to relax by keep on smiling at us. But still, I didn't play well in it. Sigh...

When I was waiting for Mu He's dad, one guy who works there told me that the examiner is very nice, very kind won't be failing anyone. So hopes that he won't be failing me too.

Guessing of marks tt I'll the examiner will be giving

Sonatina - 20
Chanston Trist - 22
No. 05 - 20
Scales - 19
Sight reading - 17
Aural - 9
Total - 107?

Ai yo so lousy de mark also can pass ar? Not bad liao lor. Good worx... hopes that I really can score 107... haha... or higher, by another 3marks. Cuz don't wanna disappoint Mr. Ji's.

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:05

25 August 2004

Careless

Yesterday night journey to Mr. Ji's house was damn tiring. Incorrect information was given to me and that's enough to spoil my mood. I don't wish to blame anyone but till I hated them.

Yesterday lesson Mr. Ji concentrated on scales and arpegios. Guess there weren't many problems. So should be doing fine on that day unless I'm nervous.

Reach home at about 11pm. Mom was telling me that she kinda miss me and was about to give me a call. Well, I kept quiet 'cuz I was still angry with her over sth.

Couldn't sleep at night. So watched some tv programmes. After the show had finish which was about 2am plus, then I went to sleep already.

That's why, today couldn't wake up on time. Thought that I was late for BK lesson but end up then I realise that I wasn't. (c",) Hm, a lot of question marks came across my mind when doing qns 7 & 8 of Depreciation and Provision of depreciation assignment. Guess it's b'cuz that I skipped the double periods of BK lesson yesterday ba. *Promise I won't do that again.*

Just get to see the comment given by the examiner for Wan Ru's. Hm, she scored 28, 29, 28, 19, 19, 17. Guess she scored well was mainly b'cuz of the interesting dynamic that she had played. And that's my main weak point. Sigh... but I'll still work hard for it within these two days.

Hm, finish my BSA common test already. Quite sad, guess I misunderstood the requirements. Printed the original date instead of the sub total. Mrs Tay told me that a lot of marks will be deducted for that. Sigh, what to do? Just hope that I won't commit the same mistake again. Think for the chart also. Selected the wrong information, sigh... too careless already. Gotta be more careful next time.

As for OFP lesson, as usual, nothing special. Doing revision... quite nice. I like it.

Hm, later gonna meet Jo's to practise together with her. A little lazy, don't really wish to travel. But it's promise to her and besides, exam is in two days time. So... but if later on in the evening, if it rains, I doubts I'll still be going. Well, it depends on how big the rain is.

Tml, guess we'll be doing our 2.4km run. Hopefully that I'll pass. "Cuz I hate to re-take this kind of thingy. So jia you le... cheering myself on. =)

I hope I'll luv myself more

16:15

24 August 2004

Sad case

Nothing much yesterday so didn't update it. As usual, overslept so was late for the morning assembly. I was quite worry about it as I'm having my progress test in the first hour of EFW. I gets annoyed by the way they handles us (late comer). Moving station from station and then finally do the spot check. Sigh, is like a waste of our time man! Well, but I did manage to do my test and finish it on the dot. Follow by 2 assigments on fax messages.

As for OFP lesson, we did two revision on chapter 3 and 4. Nothing much too. After which, went home le. Haha, skipped lesson. Damn obvious. Can't help la, I was too tired.

Sigh, just got a message fwd by MH from Mr. Ji's. Sigh, hates him man! That day on Sunday, he told me that Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday we can't make it if we're going to his house to 've lesson. Preferable on the Thursday night. But today leh, he says that both Wednesday and Thursday he cannot make it. Sigh... wasn't that a last minute inform? Don't really feels like going man! But I know he for sure gonna call my home. Later will says that I'm disobedient girl. Haix... lots of comments from him man!!! I hates it. Now still thinking wanna meet them what time. Of course the lastest the better. Feels like meeting them at 6pm reach his house at about 7.30pm? Hopefully. But think it will be too rush for Jo's. Think it will be much more convenient for her if we meet her at 6.30pm and reach Ji's house at 8pm. Hmm... nice nice... so we will 've our lesson until about 9.30pm? Reach home at about 11pm?!! Oh... shit cannot. It will be too late. Hopefully Ji's dismiss us earlier. Haix... sad case... anyway, tml still have an exam. Haix... common test some more... countable de ley!!!

Haix, later in the afternoon going to practise cello on scales le. Haix, his main objective is to listen to that. So gonna concentrate on that. Think most likely also the melodies studies no. 5. Haix, guess Jo's and I gonna suffer le. Sianz...

Hmm, guess by this Fri I'll be saving enough money for the accompaniment for my exam le ba. Sucks man the Dorina's. Ai yo, she charge the three of us the same price ($135) on that day. Means each person gotta pay her $45 just for the miserable 17mins. Wasn't that too expensive for us le ma? But guess what's the worse thing? She commented time is not the main issue, the main issue is that I'm going to play v well to cover all the mistakes that you people gonna make on that day. Ai yo... cannot stand man... haix... I swear me not going to take any more of cello practical exam!!!

I hope I'll luv myself more

12:16

22 August 2004

Windy night

Sigh, missed my bus this afternoon when I was about to late for Ji's lesson. All because of my old daddy. Forgotten when 've he placed the light cover. Blaming me for not locking the door when I was down to buy lunch. At first, I thought that he blames me was correct. But he was some how over does it. Makes me hates him a lot!!! Luckily my dearest mummy came back home and save me. She discovered that dad stacked up the two covers. Sigh, I felt much more relieved but end up I took a cab down there.

Jo's was lying on the table when I reach. Erm, didn't realise that she was sick yet called her to switch on the air con for me. After which, then saw one of her eye's was red. Ai yo, so pain. Advise her to go home but she don't want. So wait until Ji's here then she went back home. Haha...

Then Ji's listen to my Sonatina. Ai yo, ganna scolded. Haix... can't blame him cuz all the mistakes he had said before. But... not that I cannot remember. Sometimes, is hard to control sth. Sigh, he just don't understand.

Sonatina comment: Tempo was too slow. (But my own opinion don't think so. Besides, Dorina says that my tempo was just nice, in the middle. So guess on that day, I'll still sick to my own tempo) First two notes, cannot 've break in btw. The - on top of some notes 've to do it out. Diminuendo must do until very nice, very beautiful then can. Bowing for the animato part was not big enough and tempo 've to be even quicker. Accuracy for cello solo part was terrible bad, 've to practise harder. Cello accompaniment part must 've vibrato for the first note of each beat. The first note of the lowest part melody 've to be take a deep breath. End of comment.

No 5 comment: Tempo was too slow. It will be much better if it's being played in a quick tempo. Bow must be used fully. Tempo was unsteady for the middle part of the piece. And the triplet notes 've to be played in a cool style... thats all he commented.

After which, went to join juniors they all and we played the Nanyang Feng Qin. Stays there for about an hour. After that, took a cab back home cuz haven't finish doing my revision. Haix... so ke lian... today spent about 6 over dollars on cab fare. Haix... must get rid of this bad habit man!

So now finish doing my BK revision. Full of confidence. Haha, hopefully tomorrow will be able to do. Erm, not v sure whether is it countable or non countable... well... anything... cuz I've already stuided.

Hm, sitting besides the window... so windy tonight. Wow... good man! Loves it. No fan and air con needed when the windows in my room are opened wide big. But mom dislike it cuz the way I slept is damn rough... haix...

Love for Venus 2 is out!!!

Ai yo my favourite comic coming out this coming Tues. Ai yo, wanna buy it but no money yet eager to read it. Ai ya... haix... all bcuz of the stupid cello exam which needs to hired the accompaniment teacher. If not, guess by now I shld 've bought a lot of thingy that I like le. Ai yo... heart pain man! Can't wait having it. Don't know wanna ask who buy for me. *Sob* My second brother if possible? Ai yo... he sure say must wait until he gets his pay for this month. Ai ya... me cannot wait la!!! Haix... very sad ley like tt...

I hope I'll luv myself more

20:56

Good news from my god-daughter

Wan Ru's scored 140 over 150 for her grade 2 piano practical exam. Wow... power!!! Now her piano teacher was asking her to skip to grade 4 and she is still considering about it. Of course, as a c'mate I would advise her to skip. Wow... brilliant... not easy to score that high for this kind of exam. Well done. Ah bu's proud of u... jia you le.

Anyone 've e score of Romance D Amour? Nice sia!!! Haha...

Ai yo, is time to study le la... haha...

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:24

Plans for today

10:00 - Revision for BK

12:00 - Practice cello

13:00 - Shower

13:30 - Journey to cc

14:00 - SP

17:00 - Journey back home

18:00 - Shower

18:30 - Dinner (Dad shld 've bought dinner at the time)

19:00 - Revision for BK

20:00 - Revision for EFW

21:00 - Sleep?

I hope I'll luv myself more

09:56

21 August 2004

They made me feel so touch

Today morning have a date with Jo's. Actually, don't wanna trouble her but scare that I'll make empty promise to myself (My promise: Practice cello the next day morning). Therefore, invited her to my house and practice cello together. So she came to my house and I was so happy.

Didn't manage to practise much as her cello went out of tune. It was extremely tough to tune the cello for her until half and hour gone.

After practicing of cello, I wen to shower whereby Jo was in the living room doing her theory book. Not long after I came out from the bathroom, we left the house to BLCC.

Just sat down not a very long time, our piano accompaniment teacher, Ms Dorina came into the classroom. I was feeling extremely warm and nervous.

Before I starts my lesson, Mu He came in and requested me to help him to photocopy scores for Ryan's. So I went down to the office.

I was asking a zillion times for the department code yet the two guys working there keep on pushing my qns around. I gets so frustrated with time. End up, they told me that there wasn't any printing paper left. Sigh, they should 've told me earlier.

When I was about to go back to the classroom, Mu He came down and I told him the stituation. He asked me how about paying them money? I told me back that I'm not too sure about it. Let's try.

Below was the conversation with them.

Mu He: Can I photocopy?

Staff: Sorry we don't 've the code no.

Mu He: How about paying you?

Staff: You sure or not. I page $0.20

Mu He: Yes

After a while...

Staff: Erm... not that I don't want to help you photocopy but we're running out of paper.

From the short conversation, I can only comment that they just care to make $. Sigh...

So we went back to the classroom and had out lesson with Ms Dorina. Hm, I've mine first. Ernd of the first piece playing (Sonatina) Dorina's commented that it was much more better. Guess she was trying to say that it was it was much better as compared to last week. Well, thanks for your compliment.

Chanston Triste was like sucks?!! No music in it at all. Like a MU TOU sitting down there playing a cello. So disappointed. Hopefully, on that day it won't be like this.

Next Ji's came in. So he listen to MH playing the mediation. Nice sia!!! But no regret for not choosing that piece of song. Cuz, it might be an disadvantage to me. Sigh, blame me for not able to play a good vibrato.

Follow up, the three of us played Sonatina for Ji's to comment. "Not so bad, erm... be more award of accuracy. The accuracy for the lowest part of the melody was much more better. Three persons played like one person." A positive comment given by him.

After which, we went off. But a while later, Lao Da came in. Haha... so surprised and happy ro see him. So MH and Jo's had their individual accompaniment work with Dorina. Me just sat down there and listen. Wahaha... both of them played till v.gd...

Ji's came in on the dot when Dorina wanna go off. But he requested her to play the Chanston Triste with the three of us for him to comment. But sadly, MH gotta go to the BLSC to photocopy the scores. So... too bad. End up only Jo's and I. Sianz... comment again... not bad... not bad...

After that, he talk talk talk again. Saying a lot of thingy. Then juniors' Mit came in. Calling me and says: "Jialin, this drink is for you. We all treat you drink one. We also 've treat Jo's and later Percie will deliver the drink for her". Wa lao... so touch man! Me teach so many juniors ar... no ones was like them. Haix... *Cry in the heart* Haha...

Erm... Ji's finish talking already. Went off to teach juniors. Then left Mu He, Jo, lao da and me chatting in the room. Hmm... lao da commented that the piano teacher that we hired not very good. Can't hear what she's talking about. Then I commented back to him, she was a gentle lady. Then lao da like shake his head. Says that gentle ppl v. easy going... won't be strict to you want. So not really v. gd. Then I left speechless liao lor. Haha...

Ji's came in again. Calling me to go over and teach juniors their SYF song. Erm, so I went over lor. Hm... not that bad. Basically quite good already. All bcuz of Ji's and their owns effort invested in it. Haha... next went through the Nanyang Feng Qing. Hm... sad... only Percie's and Li Juan's manage to follow. The rest were just liek hating it. Sigh...

Oh shit, 6pm++ already. Sigh, thought that by that time I should be at home. But so sad, reach home at 7pm+. Haix... all bcuz of the sickening staffs working in BLCC. Problematic fellows... hating them. They're totally just like sucks!!! Horrible. Taking the salary yet don't know how to serve us well. Eat shit la... #$@#$%@*%...

So that's the end of the day.

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:22

20 August 2004

"A successful person do things that unsuccessful people do not want to do"

Hm, finish doing my BSA exam le. Now having free time to surf net. Sigh, was quite nervous when I overwrite a file that I shouldn't. End up re-type everything. So pathetic.

Good news to share. I won a $10 co-op vourcher from Mdm Juhairah as I won in the sologan competition. So good lor. Haha...

Hm, continue with my course that I attended this afternoon. Erm, "A successful person do things that unsucessful people do not want to do". True?

In between we play a game, sort of monopoly. But this was much more mature, much more fun. Real life situation. We're allow to buy stock which I guess I'll buy when I grew up and when I've lots of money. Buying stock not really a big issue, is just a kind of investment. We'll earns it back some days. Also the game included life saving plan and retirement saving plan as well as insurance cards. Well, the game was so nice that I wish to purchase one set of it. Hm, the stock went ups and down too. Sometimes, it even have a crash. Haha... fun...

From the lesson I also learns what's a need and a want. Although I've learned that long before. But this was somehow makes me to re-consider again and again when I was purchasing something like a want but not a need. Each an everyday we save 10% of our allowance (For eg, each day you get $4 for lunch, u'll 've to save up the $.0.40). Although it's a small amt, but if u gonna accumulate it for years, that would be huge sum of money. So what you waiting for?

End of lesson, of course we went back home. Something not very pleasant happened. Don't wish to mention it, cuz will sort of spoil my mood. Anyway, I'm tired. Going to sleep soon.

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:48

19 August 2004

Sad, so sad

Really damn disappointed with myself. Recently, keep on overslept. Missed my S&W for about 4 times? Sigh, guess I was not tired but simply too lazy to get up of bed early in the morning. So not surprise at all that I didn't turn up for S&W this morning.

When I was still in bed at home, the rest of my c'mates have their actual 5 stations this morning. Sigh, not very sure when I'll have mine tested. Guess the next week, we'll be running 2.4km. Hmm... looking forward to that day.

Nothing much in school. So don't 've anything thing to share. But after school, went to JP with Jasmine and Gina.

The journey to there was kinda bored. Perhaps, all of us were simply too tired. So didn't talk much in the bus.

Hmm... reach le, went to the Singapore Post to collect my letter. Haha, cuz the sender didn't paste the correct amt of postage and end up I pay for it for $1.10 just for wanting the miserable letter. Sigh...

After which, went to buy some girl's stuffs. Wa lao, saw many many things that I wanna buy de. Like make up foundation, make up remover, scrub, mask and mosturizer. But no money. Haha, guess nv bring enough money out ba. Haha... so next time go then buy lor. But guess will not buy the make up foundation, make up remover and mask lor. Cuz all these ar, not really very important to me. What's more important to me were the scrub and mosturizer. Cuz these two are the foundation for skins care.

Haix, guess when I bought the two items my sis will be using them too. Haha, cuz now me only using NP cream, remover of dead cells etc..., facial form, toner, and another type of cream for my face yet she already says that I've been buying a lot of skins care thingy. Won't be able to finish all by myself. So she says that she won't stand on ceremony with me de. So helped me to use too. Haix... so sad. Haha... just kidding.

Now wanna buy the scurb cuz is much more cheaper compare to the remover of dead cells etc. Erm... cost me about $10 just to buy a bottle of scurb instead of $13 over dollars to buy the remover of dead cells tube. So not worth it lor. Some more, the scurb cannot be used daily. Perhaps, twice a week. But another 've to use twice a day. So is more economical to use the scurb.

Erm, the mosturizer leh, I'm not too sure. But a lot of my s'mates using it. Think that one make the skin much firmer. Hmm... still got a lot. The salesgirl told me but I forgotten about it le. Haha... a... nvm... tml go sch and ask my s'mates who had been using that.

Hm, after which, we went to buy sushi. Haha... long time didn't eat le. Yummy, yummy. Loves it. Erm, didn't buy many of it... just bought 5 but ate 3 of it. Another 2 treated Jasmine's cuz she cheered me up when I was feeling down on Tuesday. Bought 2 salmon, 1 shrimp and 1 eel and crab meat. Erm, my first time eating the salmon, taste normal. Not really nice with it. Shrimp also. But the eel one was nice. Haha... guess my fav favour of sushi will be eel, tuna, cucumber, ego and crab meat ba. Haha... damn nice worx...

Hm, Li Yun bought 7 for herself. Wow... that's a lot man! I mean she's going to finish all that and 've to eat her dinner later on in the evening. Wonder will she be able to finish all that? Haix...

So continue to shop for a while after which, they went home already. So me also went home.

Reach home le, 've my dinner. Sigh, oyster rice again. Sucks man! But luckily, there was longan in the fright. So I was eating a mouth of rice and follow by longans. End up, feels very full...

After a while, went showe le. Haha, cuz dad's keep on nagging. Haix... old ppl is like that de. Can understand him. So gotta be more obedient. Haha...

Erm, finish shower le. Came into the room and print my BSA homework. Sigh, tomorrow will be having BSA common test and OFP progress test. Wow... haven't study for OFP. Erm... guess gonna stop here now and do my revision le.

So sad that I don't 've any time to practise cello today. Haix... hopefully that tomorrow I'll be able to make a make up for today's. Erm... guess is hard too. Cuz will be attending course until 5.30pm. Haix... so sad...

That's all for today.

I hope I'll luv myself more

20:05

18 August 2004

Miracle

I was a little late for BK lesson. But glad that Ms Ng haven't started the lesson. Erm, when I reached there, she has just finished showing the class our results for the common test.

I was almost fainted when Teng Ying's told me that I scored 90 for it. I don't believe her words at all. Just nice, Ms Ng asked me whether I could like to take a look at my result or not. For sure, I'm eager to know. So she shows it to me.

When I saw 90m beside my name, I was like so happy. Asking my other c'mates to take a look for me to. And they confirmed that I scored 90. Sigh, shouldn't have cried yesterday.

Immediately I tell this gd news to my friend, Kelly's. Haha, she felt happy for me too. Saying that I just lack of confidence. Haha... Jasmine's gave me a box on my arms. Haix... Tell my mom about it too. She was happy for me but advised me not to cry even I don't know how to do. As long as I tried my best, even if I failed, it still doesn't matter. Just work harder for the next test.

Hm, guess I was too happy already. Not very sure what happened next. So guess that's the most happiest day of mine. Haha...

Sorry to Jasmine's and Kelly's for making you two worried for me. =P

I hope I'll luv myself more

19:31

17 August 2004

Am I always a failure?

Overslept again this morning so I had decided to take MRT instead of bus. Not long after I've reach the campus, the morning assembly started. *Lucky*

During the EFW lesson, make a minor error when doing the Minutes of Meeting. I read the word as "Broad" instead of "Board". So corrected the error after Mdm Juhairah have corrected me. "Be careful of your eyes" she added.

Follow up was the BK common test. I was nervous in the beginning and sad enough to said that I didn't manage to get the answer. I was so disappointed with my performance that I cried. How shameful it was but I just couldn't control it when many of my c'mates gets the answer.

I was so regretted that I didn't done much revision yesterday night as I was practicing cello with Jo's. But I told myself that the word "Regret" will never ever be in my dictionary. I hates the word of "Regret" and "Sorry".

I was once told by my brother that in my entire life, do not feels regret for what u've done. Saying you're regretted, cannot turns back to the past. No point of saying sorry after you've hurt someones heart as it couldn't heal the scar.

Although, many of them might think that it was just only a 40% what's so big deal about it? But view it from the other way round. If I were to score full mark, 40 for this common test, it wasn't very much. Since that it wasn't much, I should work hard to acheive it even more... I can't afford to get less than 40.

Ms Ng told me that I will not fail if all the required transactions are there. But still, I could prefer to score full mark for it. Scoring full mark for this common test is not just only my aim. My aim is to score an "A" for this subject.

Due to lots of my students scoring high mark for BK in our campus, the standard for BK was being setted up high. It wasn't that easy to score for an "A", a minimum of 80 is required.

Now my hopes can only be aimed to a "B" for this subject.

Sometimes, people might says that B is already good enough but things can't be said in this way. To score for a high GPA, all subjects are equally important. I was weak in my EFW as it involved English in it. Don't understand BSA really much, I'm prepared to fail too. As for OFP, if indexing was the main chapter to be tested in common test, I'm going to fail that too. How can a person afford to fail so many subjects?

Want to be a successful person then you've to set your goals up to the highest. Acheiving your goals make you feels that you're a successful person. So how can I stop at the aim of getting a "B"?

I hope I'll luv myself more

16:22

15 August 2004

Finally

Received two morning calls from my juniors, Percie and Li Juan. Haha, they really called me. I mean I was kidding with 'em yesterday but they took it so seriously. But one phoned me at 7.50am and another at 8.10am which was the wrong timing. Both of them should be calling me at 8am. But still, didn't manage to wake up as I was too tired already. So end up slept until 10.30am when Percie called again.

For sure gonna be late for the practice so took a cab down there. But who knows that Su An's came today but there wasn't any cello left in the instrument room. So I lend her my cello for her to play and I just sat down somewhere near my juniors to guide them a bit.

Quite happy with both Percie and Li Juan performance today. As for Jasmine and Mitchell, both were doing well too but somehow a little absent-minded. As for Pei Shan's, totally no comments.

After the combine practice has finish, went home together with Su An's and Jo's. Actually, still have a SP in the afternoon but I didn't go as I'll be having my common test for three subjects this week and as well as submission of two projects. So... but as for Jo's, she says that she don't feel like going beside she has a lot of hmwk which was not completed yet. Thats why we went home together. But end up, she went to the SP at 4pm and Ji's scolded her. Sigh, must be asking her why don't wanna stays at home and study etc... Haha... just a guess...

Now... finally finish one of my project and left with another one which was the BSA. Actually that one also mostly done except for the animations and slide transition maybe colouring of text too. But don't intend to use any other colour other than black for all my text if not it will end up a little too messy and eyes might be hurt too. So better don't 've the whole slides too colourful.

Erm, that's all for now. Perhaps, update it again later. Continue with my next project le.

I hope I'll luv myself more

16:16

14 August 2004

Sigh, getting worse

Today had my 2nd piano accompanyment. It was like sucks. Again, the three of us, I'm the lousiest... Now, no more good accuracy... my accuracy was like hell. All notes inaccurate that's what Ji's told me. Horrible. How can inaccuracy of notes happens to me? Somemore, ALL notes not accurate. No... it cannot continue to be like this. I must work hard to get rids of all these.

Dorina commented that my sound couldn't be projected out. I was sad when I heard that. But sigh, what to do? Put in more efforts in it. Jiayou le. Then she also commented about Jo's and Mu He's. Saying that Jo's was very good in her tempo whereas Mu He's was keep on rushing but his music was there. Jo's tempo was too slow and Mu He's was too fast and mine in the middle... means alright? Haha... nt sure. The way Jo's played her sound was much more pleasant as compare to the two of us. Or like Ji's used to say it was very "clean". So overall, she might be doing better than the two of us just that she had to learn how to express herself out... her music characteristic... jiayou le! Other than that, her scales might be better than us and her aural for sure she is the best in pitching out notes. Not like me... very notes also low half note of it... sigh... jia you worx... cheering myself on...

At the end of lesson, Ji's told us that we had to practise hard. He emphasized again, esp me. And he did commented that he knows that I practice very hard already but still needs to work harder. Haix... finally, he said something sound much more couraging liao.

After which stays at cc with Mu He's and Jo's. Fun fun fun... that's all I can say when I was with them. Before that, juniors were there too. They're so cute... loves mixing around with them... sure will 've lots of laughter de lor. Haha... So that's the end of my day lor.

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:10

13 August 2004

What's wrong with these two lecturers whom I admire a lot?

Yesterday don't 've e time to come online to update my blog. So now briefly typing one entry out based on yesterday events that took place.

Overslept again so missed my S&W lesson. When reach school for CTS lesson, Jasmine told me that next Thursday for S&W lesson we will be running the 2.4km. At first, I thought only me. But luckily is all of us.

So during the CTS lesson, group work again. Doing a role play base on the topic, Face-to-face interaction. In between, Mdm Ju share a code with us, "A better man, is a man who helps someone belows him". Guess she was trying to say that we should take in Yee Peng as one of our group member. I wish, I can. But my members don't really likes her. So... end up, she groups with Joe's.

The rest of my day was like nothing much, therefore, don't really feel like typing it out.

So as for today, now having BSA lesson. I was like hating Mrs Tay damn much. But somehow, I felt a little remorseful.

Most of us not very sure how to creat a sub-total for the Retailer column so she was like no patient to teach us and starts to get frustrated. So...

But in the ends, she still guided us using the projector but it seems like no ones bother to listen to her when she was explaining. Sigh..

After which was EFW lesson. Sucks man! Don't know whats happen to Mdm Ju today's. Sianz. Everytime mood swings one. Haix... cannot stand her. Hates it man! But somehow, she was a very nice person that makes me admire her a lot. Haix...

Today reach home earlier cuz all lecturers are having meeting... so...

You're a man, but not a gentlemen!

Sigh, just discovered that my template couldn't be seen clearly therefore got another layout by Yiling's. Sad man! Like that layout very much. But nvm. So now gotta re-do most of the thingys, esp the colouring. Sianz. Had been editing all these thingys for 3 hours plus le, don't wanna continue liao cuz wanna do project work le. Sad... so sad.

Brother and his gf had a fight just now when I was practising cello half way. Wa lao, ganna frightened man! Mum was carrying Pearlyn and at the same time, tried to stop the two of 'em from fighting. So what's my dad doing? Good question. He was sleeping like a pig. Even though he knows that the two of them were fighting, he just can't be bother to help mom to stop 'em but gone back to sleep again. What a fuck man! Hates him so much.

Mother nearly cried when she saw 'em fighting. Sigh, of course, I cried. I'm not as strong as my mum. I wish I could but the fact is I couldn't. It was so sad when I saw brother pushing mom away and my mom nearly fell. Sigh, what kind of son he's? I pray hards that he died soon! He will not brings any honour to us but lots of disgraceful.

Asking for a quarrel, asking for a fight. Thats were all he asked for in the beginning. Saying sorry, apologising were what he done when he knows he was in the wrong. What kind of man you called yourself?

Hitting a women was a wrong thing to do. Some more, you hitted her face, so hard that it hurts me damn lots when I saw it. You're a man, but not a gentlemen! I felts so disgrace to 've you as my brother. Sucks!!!

I hope I'll luv myself more

12:55

11 August 2004

Nothing Much

Finally manage to wake up earlier on Wednesday. If not guess I'm going to miss my BK lesson again. So wake up too early nothing to do therefore came online to edit some of my previous blog. After which save my projects from my desktop to diskette or else during the BSA I'll be sitting down there doing nothing.

BK lesson was a little too stress for me? Haha, 'cuz I had forgotten how to do BRS which had been taught long ago. I couldn't refresh my mind at a sudden. Sigh...

Follow up we went to Westmall and 've a shop. Didn't carried out much money this morning so just had a window-shopping with 'em. Kinda bored but for sure it was much more better than staying in school and do nothing for the 2 hours break.

Came back late for BSA lesson. But Mrs Tay seems like don't even bother. So what shld I bother?

Doing assignment for OFP lesson. I did all wrong, guess majority of 'em too.

Sigh, guess today was like a sad and bored day to me.

Hopes that tomorrow 'll be a better day for everyones.

I hope I'll luv myself more

16:39

10 August 2004

Bored

Today morning wake up myself. Haix, tired lor. After which waited for Kelly to call then set off le.

The next stop saw my ex c'mate, JJ. Haha... Jun Jie. Very handsome worx... cool. At first Kelly says that he was a little DAO. But I don't think so as I think that he didn't saw us lor. After a while, he turn over our side and saw us then smiled at us. So actually he wasn't DAO ma. Haha... think he going to find his stead, Serene ba.

On the way to school, in the bus, feels like vomitting. Don't know why leh, but in the end alright la, didn't vomit out.

Hm, EFW lesson get "scolded". We were doing the minutes of meeting. Erm, my format was wrong when Mdm Ju came to do a spot check. So she was saying "What're you doing my dear?" Then I was like what had I done wrong? Then she told me that my layout was wrong and asked me to turn to page 4 of the chapter 5 and she drew a big big star on top of the format. Some more uses pen. So had to re-do everything.

I like the smell of her perfume, smelles so nice. Not very strong but the smell was still there. Guess it was the first time that I smell a perfume on her.

Oh ya, before I forget something, ITE lecturer loves to use the word "Dear". Really. Each an every time we do something, they be calling dear Jialin... something like that...

I hope I'll luv myself more

15:01

08 August 2004

As usual

As usual, received the morning call from Su Qing's but still missed the phone call as hp was in slient mode. Not long after that received a sms from Lick Suna's asking where 'm I. Sigh, of course still at home. So she was like keep rushing me to cc but I still take my own sweet time to prepare myself befor going out.

Reach cc le. 'Ve quick prac after which conductor Lee's stopped to discuss about something that might going to happen the next week. So wasted quite a lot of time doing that.

After the whole CP finished, Jo and I went to the 03-07 to had our aural test. But who knows that Jo's refused to sing. So end up me playing the Sonatina piano part which I borrow it from Lao Da. So manage to play a few lines, not so bad. Sound nice, hopes that I could be able to play the whole song one fine day.

Stays till about 8pm or 9pm then reach home already. After which switched on my PC to start my BSA project. Erm, manage to do just only 3 slides in 3 hours. 'Coz needs to find lots of info about the product that I'm going to promote. So I actually promoted the cello. Funny? MH's says it sounds a little funny. Really?

Anyway, thanks to his help of finding some info for me. If not guess I couldn't had started the entire project. Jo's also said that she is willing to help me draw out my cello. Hopefully it will be looking nice.

Feels pathetic for MH's. Sigh, he was being scolded by Ji's again. Saying that it was a waste of money spending money hiring the piano teacher just to practise aural. Aural is not a kind of thing that can be learnt but had to been practiced etc. He also told MH's that both Jo's and I has made a tremendous improvement. So happy lor. Just hopes that I can keep on improving so that he'll not look down on me. And also hopes that MH's will focus more on his scales if not he might get scolded the next Sunday practice. Sigh, jiayou le, the three of us.

I hope I'll luv myself more

15:17

07 August 2004

Fun chatting with him

Toaday morning wakes up already went to tidy my shelfs again. It was in a whole mess that I couldn't stand it. After which, went to do my project, CDP. Just started for a while while my sis came over. Pearlyn's looks much more alluring with that dress that she wore it. Very pretty worx...

Because the chilli barley was here, so I can't cont' with my work. So stopped in the middle and bring her out to the living rm and played with her. Well, she was creating a mess again. But what to do? Kids are like this. So...

Not long after that, Jo's phoned me and told me that there will be a SP later on at 2.30pm. I got stunned when I heard that. It was totally a last min inform.

So quickly went to have a shower and after which set off to cc. When I stepped into the rm, Ji's was calling my home. Sigh... don't like that lor.

Before the lesson starts, he told Jo's and I that we had to practise harder. He emphasized esp me 've to work harder or else this year will still be the same. Won't be able to pass. Then I smile smile lor.

Scales wise, 've to practise E, A major and don't know another is what. Ya, this three major scales had to be practiced more.

Piece wise, still okay. He only listens to the Sonatina. Everything was okay I suppose. Haha, hopes that I can remains the standard of todays lesson for the next lesson. Cuz thats was the minimum expected standard I guess.

After which, ends le. The whole lesson. So went to Mcs with Jo's. She ate a burger whereby I had a sundae float. After that, went to prime market and bought lots of crackers, biscuit and also tibits... haha... yummy... yummy...

Then reach home le, mom saw me carrying a huge plastic bag. Asking me what had I bought. Then me shows it to her all the stuffs that I had bought. So she asked me how much it cost me. So me told her $6. But end up she returns me back $10. So I earns it lor.

Just had a chat with MH's. Haha, funny man! I was pulling his legs actually when he reallys thought that I'm going to his home at this hour (1245). Possible? Yes, my not to his home but his house void deck. 'Cuz me scare will disturb his family members ma. But who knows that he went to tidy up his house, waiting for me to come at the door. Some more, he even have a thought of cooking the maggie mee before hand. The worse thing was that, he told he mom that I am going up to their home. Well, I was stunned when I heard that. But I did apologies to him.

So that's about all for today. Gotta turn in early if not tomorrow won't be able to wake up for CCCP.

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:59

06 August 2004

National Day Bazzar

Woke up pretty early today as our attendance will be marked at the assembly ground this morning. After which we may go home if we so wish.

Kelly's class was having a fortune teller stall so I went and in to ask about my cello examination, studies and rela btw parents and I. The teller told me that I was imaginating too much stuffs that might not be too good for me. All I need to do is to relax myself and the outcome would be good. Rela btw parents and I so far was quite good. Have to take initiative in order to improve the rela. Well, true or not true? Me ownself also don't know. Haha...

Yun's asked me whether I saw Billy's earlier on or not. I told her yes. Then she says that there are someone who told her that Billy was outside the classrm B2/103. But she still couldn't spot for him. Haha, and a lot of people told her that it was fated!

Then think Gek Chin's suggested to watch the Clementi idol at the MPH. $1/ticket. The starting they had a dance follow by the fashion show. After which we had those participants on stage to perform the song that they going to sing. The first lady sang the ah-mei song, TING HAI. Quite pleasant, just that her voice was a little too low and she eventually stopped near the end. Not sure what happened, but overall she sang it well. Second lady better than the first lady as she added some dance in it. Quite pleasant too, thought she would be better than the first but the result announced to be the same. The third and forth were in group. Both were lousy? Especially the boy's group. Thedrum was loud, I couldn't hear the guitar and the lyric that the singer was singing. Isn't it amusing? The other group was performed by Kelly's c'mate. Erm quite good just that their dance steps should be bigger and overall, they actually lack of confident and teamwork. The third lady, was brilliant! I loves her singing and I enjoy listen to each an every song that she had sung. She was totally a great singer! The last but not least, the last singer who performed a malay song so I actually walked out to the MPH. So the Clementi Idol for year 2004 was the third lady which I had said earlier on that she was totally a professional singer.

Jesline's told me that she wanna get to know a guy which looks like one of the 5566 members', Mong Zhe. Well, that guy indeed looks like Mong Zhe, only for the side view. I manage to get a look of his front view, and I don't think that he really looks resemble as Mong Zhe. However, he was a good-looking guy. Didn't manage to get his handphone number, but some info about him. He was from class KM, and his name was Alvin's. Well, that's why I enjoy this kind of function in my school. I get to know 4 new friends.

After which, saw Don's selling his curry rice. Didn't say Hi to him today. Also don't know why. Maybe not in the mood ba. Haha...

Sigh, this function cost me a lot of money supporting lots of classes. But nvm, money still can be earned back.

Guess that's about all. Going to practise cello le, later will be having the accompanyment play with the piano. Hoho... nervous... =)

I hope I'll luv myself more

15:17

05 August 2004

Horrible cum Terrible

Today dad woke me up in the morning if not I think I would have overslept again. Sigh, yesterday turn in pretty early but just couldn't figure out why was I still so tired today.

S&W didn't 've my 1.5km run but 5 stations. Didn't do all the station as I was playing around with my c'mates. When the lesson was about to end, guess who I saw? Don! Haha, said "Hi" to him. Then of course he waved his hand and said "Hi" back to me. Well, he looks more dashing today as he was carrying his helmet. I fainted when I saw him drove his bike infront of me.

Before I forget, just wanna highlight over here that Clementi ITE students are very rich, especially the guys in our school. Erm, few students own bikes and some own cars. So you can tell how rich my s'mates were le ba.

So in the afternn at the POT classrm, I was thinking of buying the curry rice from Don's. So I told Jasmine as she is the only who had his handphone number. Then don't know what made 'em think that I like Don's. Maybe was because I acted fainting in the field when Don's drove his bike off infront of me ba. And another reason might be I said "Hi" to him. Well, for some people they might think there is nothing wrong. But for some people like Pei Zhen and Jasmine will think that that's weird. Sigh... whatever. Erm, I know can already.

Didn't study much today. I mean right after S&W was CTS we did a discussion. After which went to the library to do the Cocktail signboard. After that was POT lesson. I copied most of 'em from my c'mate the last week so... sat down there and chit chat chat with Gina's they all. Follow by CDP lesson. As usual, went to self-access to do the... ... ... don't know what they do today. Nvm, tml then go and ask my c'mate.

After which, went to do the signboard. Actually I didn't do anything, but make myself available just in case they needs any help. So stays till pretty late today lor. About evening 7pm then reach home. Wa lao, horrible cum terrible lor. Haix... now gotta go and do the "stand" le. Not one wor, three. Hopes that I could finish it before 2330.

Tomorrow my first accompanyment with Dorina. Hopes that things will be turning out fine. A, enough for today.

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:20

04 August 2004

Another NEW project

Guess yesterday slept too late already and end up today morning couldn't wake up on time. So missed my BK lesson but not just me. Almost 3 quarter of my c'mate skipped the lesson. The main reason is that after BK lesson we'll be having 2 breaks before the next lesson.

So actually I can go to school at 1130 before my 1215 lesson starts. But as I promised my members that I'll reach school to complete the signboard together with em. But who knows that Gina's forget to bring the poster colour for painting the letterings. End up we did our BK homework in the library.

Lots of my c'mates are using blogger nowadays. Hm, guess Shirley's and Jasmine's Yen webbies are coming up soon.

I was calling Metta as I needs to confirm the price with her but she was like very irritated at me. Well, I knows that she wasn't in a good mood but that's not the appropriate way to answer my question. In fact, I really gets annoyed when she talks to me in that manner just now. However, I could understand how stress she was so I just kept quiet and let her be. After which I went to ask Shirley's for the information. I could tell that she was stressful too but she can actually destress herself if she 've leave all e stuffs to be done at home but not in school. She was a bad-temper girl too, but she knows very clearly that she can't probably any how shows her attitude towards her friends'. Especially to those friend's of hers whom does not know her well, for eg, me. So I was glad that she wasn't like Metta.

So by this Friday, we should had completed one of our project. That's the NDP Bazzar project. But sad to say that we were being issued a new project by Mrs Tay (Our BSA lecturer) during the BSA lesson. Hm, the deadline for this project would be right after our September holiday, the 20th.

Mention of this coming Friday, I'm still wondering should I go to school and 've e celebration together as a campus or just stays at home and do all the projects, revision and practice for my coming cello examination. Well, I've to wake up damn early in the morning just to attend the morning assembly and after which proceed to the MPH for the celebration. Right after the celebration, we're allowed to go home. But before I went home, I've to go to hunt for certain stalls to collect my orders. Think on that day I've to collect 3 pacs of Nasi Lemak, 1 pac of don't know what rice le, 3 othas and some tibits. If I choose to stay at home, all these orders would be wasted. So after much thoughts think it's best to go instead of staying at home.

Tomorrow first period will be S&W, needs to pass my 1.5 this time round. Cuz most of my c'mates' are proceeding to the 5 stations. So... hope that there will be someone there to lead me on. I'm sure I can pass tomorrow. Let's see...

Going to do my BK homework questions 12 to 15. Hopes that I could finish it within an hour.

I hope I'll luv myself more

16:18

03 August 2004

Conservation with that group of guy

Me: I'm so sorry to interrupt you guys. Do you guys like to buy the cocktail coupons from us?

Don: (Chatting on the phone with his friend) Later I call you back, now 've girls talking to me (He said that in hokkien)

Me: (Laughted)

Don: What you selling?

Me: Cocktail

Don: You want to buy the Nasi Goreng from me?

Jasmine: How much?

Me: Huh? Wa... you never approach me earlier. I've already bought 3 pacs of Nasi Lemak from my "frenz" already ley.

Don: Then you buy the Nasi Goreng from me

Me: But on that day I might not be coming and I doubt I could finish all the 3 pacs of Nasi Lemak

Don: You buy Nasi Goreng from me I accompany you to eat Nasi Lemak

Me: (Laughing)

Don: How much was it?

Me: $1.70

Nic': We on that day then buy if from you all

Me: You all buy now, because now only $1.70 but on that day $2. Not all of you need to buy it from us. You all can share it. And on that day, if it taste nice, then buy if from our stall at $2 each.

Nic took our his wallet and passed $2 to me. So of course I say thanks to him for supporting us.

Then this moment got one guy walk towards us and say "Want us to buy thing from you yet you sat my place. Sigh..."

I was stunned when I heard that. I stood up and let him have his seat back.

Don: No need to be afraid of him, he won't treat you nasty one. But I can't promise that his girlfriend won't treat you nasty arr...

Me: Huh? (Laughted)

Nic'": Just kidding

Then me laugh together with 'em lor. Then look at Billy.

Me: You want to buy? (Asking Billy)

He took out his wallet and passed $2 to me. So I say thanks to him too.

So finish my job and the main thing is coming up next.

When I was about to approach Billy's that my "frenz" Li Yun's wanna be his friend and could he allow me to have his handphone number or not Jasmine told me that she wanna be Don's friend. Just nice that Don's stood up and walked away to his next lesson. Therefore, I quickly stop him by tapping his shoulder and tell him that Jasmine could like to be his friend and could she have his handphone number. So he was like surprised and started at Jasmine before he say yes she may 've it.

After helping Jasmine to get his handphone number, I walks back towards Billy to ask for his number. He didn't commented much but just gave. So Nic' was saying that "I know why you girls approach us already" "Just come here and act selling coupons then take the advantage to ask number from Billy's" Then I say wow you very intelligent worx... he smiled...

After that, we went back to class to have our BK lesson. A, the second period I was like a little hungry as I didn't 've my lunch during my lunch break. So...

After which was BSA lesson, nothing much then can go home le. Gina's was there buying ice-cream when I saw one couple was behaving like a little too open. What I mean was that, that girl was hugging her stead waist. I look at 'em for a while after which I turns away and look somewhere else. Then I heard that guy telling that girl not to hug his waist. Then he pushes off her hands. I can tell that that guy was looking at me, but I still looked somewhere else. When I turns to Gina, I looked at him again and he smiled to me. Then I look as his gf and his gf was like jealous? Cuz she was showing me that kind of attitude that I could tell obviously that she was jealous. A, that guy was quite good-looking but pitiful a little too short. If not I might get his number worx... just kidding. Well, from that situation, I could tell that that guy wasn't serious with his relationship between him and that girl lor. Haix...

And another thing I could like to highlight over here is that, it wasn't wrong to be someones friend even though he or she had already 've a stead. If you're afraid that their stead 'll get jealous, then I can tell you that there isn't any trust in between 'em. Since there wasn't any trust in between, then I'm sure that the rela will not last long. Agreed by Jasmine.

Some guy will be a little more shy or what. And initiative wasn't meant for just guys only. Now the 21st century, both sexes are equally fair. Initiative, motivation are meant for both sexes. Since you're the one who ones to be his friend, you should take the first move to contact him. I'm glad you say sorry to me as you was hating me for being such a busybody in the afternoon. But I know in the actual fact, I'm your great helper when you say thanks to me in the end.

Comments for the three guy

Don, very humorous have lots of fun tricks in his mind. Very jovial. Knows how to hoax ladies. Very nice. Billy's too quiet le, had a bashful character. Not good worx... must some how flirt flirt with girls ma. Haha... maybe he loves his stead a lot ba. That's why he's so faithful to his stead. Never any old how flirt flirt around. Nic's wise, not so bad. At least he was a little humorous too but somehow, not sure how should he join in the conversation.

Hm, hopes that I can saw them again. So that can understand em better. Maybe getting their Msn address too. But hor, also no use de lor. Cuz me recently wasn't logging in to the msn. That was because I'm too busy doing my project already. So I doubt I've any time to chat with my 'frenz'. Well, even sometimes, my status was set to busy, somehow, people don't really understand whats that word mean. So... was like keep on chatting with me till no stop. So I don't really like it lor. Thats why didn't log in to the msn recently. And partly also I will only update my blog when I was in school or when I was taking a break from my project work doing half way. So...

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:06

02 August 2004

An entry full of why...

Hm, recently not so free to come online and update my blog not even making use of the BSA lesson. So going to do a summary for these few days.

Sunday as usual, went to the CP. A lot of people turns up for the practice and of course Mr Lee was happy. After which, practiced a little while together with Jo's and after that went home le. Did a revision for OPF and and then follow by a nap. Haha... too much information to be memorise in my brain. So about evening, Jo's came to my house to practise together with me the exam pieces. About 9pm then she went home.

So accompany her back home, my mom was asking me to drink something that she had brewed specially for me. Saying me recently falls sick easily so brewed that drink for me. Well, it was yucks! The smells makes me feels like vomitting. So I was like keep on refusing to drink but end up, mom was angry and the stupid face of my dad pushes me to no choice but to drink it. So took the cup, went to my room and leave it on the table. Not long, mom went in to make sure that I drink it up, so... me left with no choice lor...

End for Sunday.

Today, wake up pretty early, so decided to go to school earlier to help Alvin's up with the morning duty. So when I have reached there, it seems like no ones was there except for Jun Lan's. Sigh... I was telling Jun Lan's that I won't be coming the next Monday onwards. It was like so bo liao.

So in the middle as usual, have my lessons. Last lesson was OFP test, pretty easy. Haha, no stress. Glad I didn't really study in details. Or else my efforts would be wasted. After which, went home with Gina.

Bus journey back home seems to be pretty long, and guess I was too tired that I fall asleep. But then, I overslept. So took about another 10 to 15 mins of bus journey in order to get back to the opposite of my house bus stop.

Hm, during that additional bus journey, I saw my cousin, Bao Yi's. Haha, she had grown taller and sth that amuse me was that, she was wearing her sister uniform! Well, their size are totally a gigantic different. (Jo's should know how big the difference was ba). Haix... well, I was totally taken aback by her lor. Erm, something I noticed also, she was now much more beautiful than before. Looks quite like SN sister, Jasmine. Very pretty wor. Haha... hopes that she could stays that pretty forever.

After the additional bus journey, walked a small distance before I could reach home. After which went to have a shower as Jo's will be coming later on to practise together with me again. Hm, maybe tomorrow will be the last day and she've to bring her cello back home as she might be having school CP on Wednesday afternoon. If not, she also have to attend the performance for the CCCP at the evening on the same day. A, me not going haha... cuz it was like a minor pfm lor. Just pfm for about 10 mins and you'll be allow to go home. I was like no funs at all lor.

Ya, so mom was just asking me was that towel hanging on the door belongs to mine? Then I told her yes. Then she asked how about the ones at her room. Then I told her also mine. Then she asked me how many towels do you needs? I explained to her that I couldn't find my towel just now when I went to the bathroom. So... then she walked out of the room.

And one last thing, I was so mad with my brother. He was just like ****. What the stupid face he had shown it to me when he steps into the room just now. I was switching on the computer. So what? Why must he give me that kind of attitude that it makes me feel like picking a quarrel with him. Why can't he just let me have it for a while to finish my project? Why was he forever that selfish? Why was he my brother? Why? Why do I have such kind of brother whom always think for himself. Think that how bored would he be w/o anything for him to do. How much he would be going to suffer without playing his stupid, bored game, FIFA? Sigh, all I can do is to pray that he would be going to NS this 21st Sep...

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:43